Day 3 (or as it’s called around here, Day minus 5)

I’ve been in isolation for 3 days now and I’m getting used to it, slowly but surely.

Although, I have to admit, I had a bit of a temper tantrum this morning. I won’t go into it, but it involved wanting a cup of coffee and not being able to leave the room. You get the picture.

So far, the chemo regimen has been going smoothly. The side effects are not terrible and I am feeling well, more or less.

Yesterday, I met with an Infectious Disease specialist. She was called in, because I mentioned my desire to use medical marijuana to ease the chemo side effects (and make being in isolation a wee bit easier). I have already been given permission to use it in the form of a homemade tincture and the transplant department has offered cannabis oil. However, from my experience, smoking is usually most effective to making me feel better and I can not smoke in here. But, I received a beautiful gift from a family friend, a top-of-the-line vaporizer. When I first arrived, I asked if I could use the vaporizer and I was told that after meeting with the Infectious Disease specialist, I would have an answer.

She said, “Why not? If it works!”

The reason for concern is that dried plant material can carry all sorts of microorganisms and fungus. That can be very alarming for a person with a suppressed immune system. The doctor decided that the plant material in question was not dangerous.

Here I am immediately after she left.

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My two hens (my mother and cousin, Moran) and I are in the process of setting up the room. It is starting to look and feel more homey. The walls are splattered with the faces of my loved ones and the images that keep me centered.

Here’s a taste.

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My room is located directly in front of the nurse’s station. At first, my mother was concerned that it would be too loud, but I actually like the hustle and the bustle. I like being able to open the blinds on my door-window and see humans moving and grooving in the music of their lives. It makes me feel less isolated.

In the room, there is a comfy sofa-like chair in the corner. I like to sit in it and read and write. It’s also healthy to stay out of bed as much as possible. This is what I see when I look out the window from this vantage point.

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Not the best picture, but it does show this one, solitary palm tree facing the sea. I feel quite the resonance with it.

Those are my thoughts for this day.

Sending love and light from my extra special quarantine retreat!



3 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Holli Hebl on March 14, 2014 at 3:04 pm

    sending you love and light


  2. Posted by liora meidan on March 15, 2014 at 4:56 pm

    Oh wow Heal Or! You are so amazingly beautiful I enjoy your special writing skills. I am so pleased that you are staying in such a homey looking suite and so well furnished and with a view from the window. You are my inspiration and now officially I seriously will go back to read more and more all your blog.. I have managed to throw a surprise party to Daniel yesterday and I have to say that I am proud that I could take the extra stress especially because my past 2 weeks have been loaded by work and demanding clients. Sometime we forget how capable we are and so much more stronger than we feel.. The best thing I am learning, ( I continue to learn every day even in my 50s) that in life its really all about self work and lots of good attitude.. I will send you some photos if the party soon. Love peace and OR!

    Liora G. Meidan RE/MAX Properties Plus 3 W. Railroad Ave Tenafly, NJ 201-615-7678


    • Posted by feelandheal on March 17, 2014 at 7:51 am

      Liora! I love this! All of it! You sound wonderful. And I am humbled to hear that by reading my blog you feel inspired to express yourself. It is truly a gift to me. I love you so much, doda. xo


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